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亡命之徒    -[Attitude]
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其实,这是一个很好的比喻。亡命之徒。

我就是一亡命之徒,一个彻头彻尾的赌徒,我用我所有的青春,所该拥有的世俗的幸福,才华,时间...我用我的一切的一切我的全部身家作为赌注,去赌一个未来,这种做法叫作孤注一掷。如果我赢了就赢大了,如果我输了,我就一无所有,变成一个彻底的笑话。我已经没有退路可以选,我只能赌下去。

那首歌叫作亡命之徒唱”出发啦,不要问那路在哪,迎风向前,是唯一的方法,命运啊,什么关卡,当车声隆隆,梦开始阵痛,它卷了风,重新雕塑每个面孔,夜雾那么浓,开阔也汹涌,有一种预感,路的终点是迷宫“

”我们都不必在意未来的样子

像是精神病患写的诗 或是烟花绽放的节日 

随它去吧 我们都只活一次“

可是,如果命运再来一次,我还是选择当一个亡命之徒。”也有很多次我想要放弃了,但是它在我身体的某个地方留下了疼痛的感觉……一想到它会永远在那儿隐隐作痛,一想到以后我看待一切的目光都会因为那一点疼痛而变得了无生气,我就怕了" 

Posted by  at  2010-10-03 10:25:00 | Read More  |  Edit | Comments(2) | Trackback(0)


Gameover    -[Attitude]
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Talked with a cute and sweet German guy.he said

" The most important 3 stuff in love and kinds of relationship should be:trust,honest,and respect.

The meaning of love or relationship is not any kinds of exchange,it is ---to share feeling."

That's fucking true:)That's simple,easy,everyone knows.But most of people,they don't understand.Maybe it's not in relationship,but also friendship as well.

Choose to trust,choose to be honest,choose to respect,not because you're too stupid to be cheated and be deceived.Whereas,that means you're willing to trust the one totally without any doubts.That means this one suppose to deserve your trusts,makes you secure.

You're smart enough to find the truth,but you're just willing to choose to trust.If the two people should alert each other,this friendship or relationship is senseless.

You know,the right one will never make you feel insecure.For me,the most important stuff I appreciate from a person is----sincere.

When he Let you down,maybe he is  pride of his petty trick,actually,he is  the loser:)he has lost your trust,he has  lost the most valuable stuff,he has lost the most beautiful stuff in the world,such kind as love,sincere,trust,honest,respect....You just keep being a real and sincere person,you have never lose anything,you deserve a better one.

Game is over.It should be.

最近在身边人身上发生了很多事,房子里的气氛很哀伤。这是我的观点。一个很可爱的德国小弟弟这段话很对“在任何一段关系之中,最重要的事情是:信任,诚实,尊重....爱情不是任何形式的交换,是分享感受”

Posted by  at  2010-06-02 08:14:14 | Read More  |  Edit | Comments(0) | Trackback(0)


I should get all my passion back!!!    -[Attitude]
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看了一本很典型的美国浪漫轻喜剧serendipity,本来只是为了消遣(考试压力逼得我有点精神紧张P.S.不要再问我为什么有那么多考试了,我就是有那么多考试)。但是有一句台词很触动我。(抱歉又谈电影和台词,只是最近有意识地看了很多英语电影为了锻炼听力和找到语感)

The ancient Greeks did not write obituaries, instead they asked only one question of a man (or a woman): "Did he have passion?"

-------古希腊人从不写讣告,他们只是在人们死了之后问一个问题“他/她生前是否有激情?”

这句话的出处无从考证,或者是编剧的杜撰,但是很符合西方或者是美国的价值观:)---但是真是有如当头棒喝的话,我在问自己----have you ever lost your passion? 似乎,也许是这样的。太多的多愁善感的小情绪,太多软绵绵的音乐,一点一点消蚀着我的意志力,仿佛我已经不再是当年那个在荒原上逆风暴走的深蓝了。记得你当年的话----生命是用来浪费在路上的,才华是用来挥霍的,嚣张是我的美德。失去了所谓的passion,我也失去了我的嚣张的美德。我讨厌这样的自己。我讨厌忧伤的自己,我应该放肆地大笑,即使笑到嚎啕大哭,这一切也不能磨灭我勇敢前进勇敢生活的力量,我还不到怨天尤人的年纪,我也还不到无力屈从于命运的年纪,我还年轻,我还可以大把挥霍我的才华和时间,I‘m still young,So what?let's say cheers to the life.Go to hell!The so-called"Fate"I don't believe that,I only trust myself.Without passion,that life gonna be senseless,we're not zombie,passion is the evidence what prove we have been lived.At least when we die,there is no regrets.So,fight against the damn destiny,with your burning passion,nothing can hold up your steps.Everything you want gonna be real,never give up your belief and passion and hole on,even sometimes you feel pain throw you up to the hell,that's only the process,it's full of poignant sadness,but that's the price of dream.we can lose anything but not passion and courage,otherwise life means nothing.Laugh out bravely,even if the laugh with weeping...it's rather better than being numb.

How can we prove that we're still young?It not rely on the time itself,but it rely on our courage and the nature of youthhood.Why not?Even right now,I'm 80 years old,I can say with pride that I'm still young---Just because of the rebel blood go through my heart,because of my stubborn pride,nothing can pull me down!Finally,cheer up and say"Viva la Gloria!"

In the end of <The Dharm Bums>,Jack kerouac write"Japhy," I said out loud, I don't know when we'll meet again or what'll happen in the future, but Desolation, Desolation, I owe so much to Desolation. Thank you for guiding me to the place I learned all. Now comes the sadness of coming back to cities and I've grown two months older and there's all that humanity of bars and burlesque shows and gritty love, all upsidedown in the void God bless them, but Japhy you and me forever know, O ever youthful, O ever weeping."-------我不知道什么我们会再见面或者将来会发生什么....但是我们永远知道,永远年轻,永远热泪盈眶。

年轻人和三姑六婆的区别就是,我们不会坐以待毙,我们得把属于我们的东西抢回来,我们的血性,我们的少年心气,我们可贵不认输的倔强。我们证明自己年轻的方式不是依靠时间本身,而是我们的勇气和我们年轻的本质。

我要把属于我的东西抢回来。我感觉力量重新回到我的血管里。让我告别软绵绵的无力的枯朽的忧伤小情绪,告别一切怀疑和不自信,告别充满垮掉糜烂的神经质的音乐,感谢最传统的摇滚乐,感谢上个世界六十年代颠覆一切的朋克精神,它们又一次拯救了我。我感觉我越来越清晰我的路,我照片该走的路,等我重新整顿好我的条理,重新拿起相机的时候,我坚信它们会和以往一切不一样,它们终究充满了力量。

不要盲从别人的审美,你知道,你的作品直接反应的是完全属于你自己的特性,每个人都是不一样的,每个人的趣味和审美取决个人经验和阅历。有的东西那么美,可是并不意味着你需要跟着它们走,你有自己的表达的方式和内容,你知道,你的路是不一样的,不要迷失自我,尽管沿路的风景是那么美。我不想听你们怎么说,我知道我的性格就是不认输,不认命,我只相信自己的直觉,即使摔死也活该。我喜欢主动去争取,讨厌故作矜持的虚伪,我不喜欢任何策略,我只知道真诚和坚持,意念的力量是无限可以改变一切,只要足够虔诚和勇敢。我讨厌自怨自艾坐以待毙,尽管有的时候我很懒错过了很多机会,但是我即使耗尽全身最后一点力气,我也要把本该属于我的一切抢回来。我充满了攻击性和倔强,我怀疑我所听到的一切,我只相信我所亲身经历的,少年的时候我相信我可以改变一切,现在我依然相信我可以改变一切,即使你们说,这是一种幼稚和不成熟,我也要说,这是一种深思熟虑的幼稚,我无法改变我的本性去做一些我不喜欢的选择,这是动物本能。如果说性格决定命运,我猜测,这一切都不是巧合。

Never follow the others' taste.Your work reflect what's your personality directly.Everyone is different,the taste and interest depend on personal experience.Sometimes,you touched by something what looks so beautiful---but it doesn't mean you should follow them,you have your own expressing way and content.You know,your way is different from others,so,never lose yourself.I don't want to follow your words,I know so is my personality--gameness,stand fast,I only trust my instinct.I'm aggressive and sharp,just on my own initiative.I hate complain and wait for death,although sometimes I'm lazy and missed something,but I won't miss more.When teenage,I believe that I can change everything by myself,until now,I still think so.Maybe you will say,that's naive,but I should acknowledge that is a cogitative naivety.I can't change my nature to choose what I don't want,that's the animal instinct.If people say, The Personality Decides Destiny,I guess,everything is not a coincidence---------In that case,I believe in the so-called destiny----you know ,Life is not merely a series of meaningless accidents or coincidences, but rather it is a tapestry of acts that culminate in an exquisIte, sublime plan…serendipity,what the ancients used to call fatum; what we currently refer to as destiny.

I should get all my passion back,and get all the stuff what belong to me back,Life is just once,If we don't enounce loudly,we have no chances any more.

Now I'm powerful,Come on,I'm not afraid anything,anything....nothing can hurt me,nothing can stop my steps.Since My name is Blue----I waste my life on the road,I squander my talent for fun,aggressive is my virtue,thanks.

 

Posted by  at  2010-04-07 19:45:34 | Read More  |  Edit | Comments(4) | Trackback(0)


I'm back    -[Attitude]
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I'm sleeping for such a long time,I will wake up in this spring.

I'm back.Such a beautiful trip.Seem like I'm back from another world,now back to the reality.

A peaceful life in the small village make me realize the real self.

Too much is waiting for,and I'm already.

 

I'm not only the talent.but,you know,I'm the genius.

Melancholy is not my name.My name is Vanessa.I pick up this name because I wanna to be anther Vanessa Bell,who is as warm as the Earth Mother,warm all the broken hearts of genius.My photography is warmth,sincere,pure,kind,frank,silent and still,innocence.It is the refuges of all the depressive and solitude souls.ease the pain,stop the bleeding.cure the hurt,At least,I hope so.

Photography has its responsibility and duty,but not just the amplification of individual loneliness and pain ,fatigue.We always set question but we should also get the solution.photography rather than a humanistic care which is close the depth of soul.I'd like to become such kind of placebo.Because of understanding,I know which is  mercy.

Let me hug you,at your most painful hurt.I know you have been waiting for it a long time.I could understand the common sorrow and silence which we should  bear in our lives by my way.With my silent love,sealed your soundless weeping.

I’m not the little girl who is full of fear,punk,Aggressive,full of doubts,absurd ideas,try to target how different am I,with unique in character and behavior.cynical and detesting the world....But now I'm mature,brave,strong,fortify my conviction,peaceful and warm.Now,I stand here,hold my camera, saluting the whole world with my big hug.Come on,I am afraid you anymore!

 

"And she says "I've come to set a twisted thing straight"

And she says"I've come to lighten this dark heart"

And she takes my wrist, I feel her imprint of fear

And I say "I've never thought of finding you here."

I used to wait for such a hug when solitude standing for several years,But now I grew up enough,And I believe that I should come to lighten the dark heart.

 

 

很美好的一次旅行。安静得恍若隔世。

我沉睡了太久,终于要在这个春天苏醒过来。

我确信,我不仅仅只是拥有世俗的才华,我是天才。

忧伤不再等同于我的名字,我选择和vanessa bell一样的名字,我希望像她一样拥有地母般的温暖。我的摄影表达的是真诚的,善良的,温暖的,宽厚的,纯真的,平静的,抚慰和温暖那些破碎的心。我希望它像一个避难所那样为所有的忧郁和孤独的灵魂止血。摄影有自己的责任和使命,而不仅仅只是扩大个体的疼痛和孤单疲惫,而是一种贴近灵魂深处的人文关怀,我愿意变成这样一片安慰剂,因为懂得,所以慈悲。在你最痛的伤口上,给你一个等待已久的拥抱。我用自己的方式理解我们共同忍耐的那些生命里的悲伤与安静。以沉默的爱,封缄那些因为疼痛而发不出声音的无声哭泣。

我不再是那个充满恐惧的小女孩,充满怀疑和攻击型,标榜自我的荒诞和世俗抗争,甚至自我孤立。我成熟勇敢,眼神坚定,平和温暖,我站在这里,举起相机,用我的怀抱迎接全世界。来吧,我不再怕你。

 

Posted by  at  2010-02-18 20:24:13 | Read More  |  Edit | Comments(0) | Trackback(0)


这是我的态度    -[Attitude]
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"坚持到底就是一种尊严,是一种对生命的信仰,坚持会产生奇迹"

"也有很多次我想要放弃了,但是它在我身体的某个地方留下了疼痛的感觉……一想到它会永远在那儿隐隐作痛,一想到以后我看待一切的目光都会因为那一点疼痛而变得了无生气,我就怕了"

。。。。很多次我都想要放弃了,可是一想到我要是失去了我坚持的信仰,那种疼痛的感觉折磨得我就此失去了生气,我就怕了。

尽管前面的路再辛苦,我的压力再大,我依然会选择坚持下去。

可是有的时候,我真的会感觉到一种从内心深处渗透出来的深深的疲惫感,一个女生在国外为所谓的梦想努力着真的很辛苦。可是放弃它,我会觉得人生毫无意义。于是我别无选择,我只能朝前走去,尽管,我根本不知道未来等待我的到底是一无所有还是灿烂辉煌,我是真的怕了,可是这一点点的信念支撑着我走下去,对未来的幻想和那些乐观主义的盲目自信,变成我坚定的目光。那些四面八方袭来的不支撑的声音,嘲笑的眼神,一天一天变老青春不再却一事无成的压力,世俗利益和所谓的成就和我的巨大反差。我真怕哪一天我一时的疲惫和怯弱就会被打进万丈深渊。而那些抛到水里的巨大的沉没成本绑架着我无法回头。我只有坚持下去,这是我在这个世界面前保持自己尊严的唯一的方式。走下去,义无反顾地走下去,即使到最后只有我一个人孤独而固执地老去,这一切,都将是我努力燃烧过盛放过的证据。

很多年之后,我的笑容将依然温暖纯真,我的眼神将依然倔强,在整个世界摧毁我之前绝不缴械投降。这就是我的态度。

当我憧憬光明的时候,我就不再惧怕黑暗。即使这是必须忍耐的孤独,不被理解,嘲笑,冷漠,孤立,然而我直到今天才发现,除了才华和梦想,那些懂我的人给我的温暖和爱。我真的一无所有。

Posted by  at  2010-02-10 05:54:28 | Read More  |  Edit | Comments(5) | Trackback(0)



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